It's actually 15th day away from operation day :D Just give a
Day 0: Operation day, 27th Dec 2012
felt like i just went the operation yesterday, i can remember the 5 day of nightmare. I REALLY MEAN NIGHTMARE! I think I overlooked the whole process, it was actually much more painful/scary/unbearable then i thought it will be. But I guess I didn't regret doing it? But asking me to undergo it 2nd time, hmmm, I have to think again. It's REALLY REALLY A NIGHTMARE, not that i'm a scaredy cat. Entering the operation theater was scary,(don't know is it becoz of the air con and i'm only wearing a thin layer pyjamas) I remembered i shivered , just feel like a chilled down my spine. The scene was like I'm going to be operated and become a robot like those in the movie (okay, i'm a drama queen). I can feel the major-ness of the operation which make me start to think a lot, what if the operation failed? what if i die? (okay, drama queen again -.-) when pushed into the operation theater table, things get even more like in the movie, so many surgeon, nurse, doctor or whoever (total 7 and i don't know them) surround me while i was lying down there. The surgeon, nurse, doctor was nice, they assured me, making me less afraid of the operation. General anesthetic was given, i hate the feeling of it going through my hand and into my body, it's quite unbearable but the next moment, i was sound asleep.
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| The drama moment i had :D |
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| A collage of my love ones |
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| Me excited on wearing the operation robe LOL |
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| Local anesthetic, medications and glucose drip was given through this tube to my body, yes, it was scary, doctor said there's no needle inside, but i feel the pain when moving the hand too carelessly. |
What makes me felt more useless and felt like crying was using of a suction tube, holly shit, my mouth is full of blood, and every few hour I have to use the suction tube to suck off the blood, they taught me how to use it, but i can't feel where is my mouth, how would i know how to use :( I super upset with the nurse doing night shift, she's super impatient! I'm a patient and u so impatient towards a patient?! i tried to swallow the blood (as my dad told me to do so, don't say ewww, drink back the blood u have lost is good, lol) but it just won't go in. That's all for the day, oh, coz i slept the whole afternoon till like midnight, i can't fall asleep during the midnight, and the nurse was so bad that make me miss my family badly, I actually wrote to the nurse to ask her to call my parents to visit me. I thought it was 7plus in the morning, but to my surprise, it was only like 5plus?! oh ya, when I was much conscious, i realised there's a urinal tube :O holly shit, that's the reason why I don't feel like peeing? Oh man, I'm a conservative girl (okay, a little embarrassing) but I just have to convince myself that they are all use to human body, and might saw like thousands of naked body? and I don't feel hungry, coz there's glucose drip.
Day 1: Nightmare 28th Dec 2012
A cotton inside one of my nostril was pulled out, I squeaked in pain
and the urinal tubing was also pulled out, holly shit, the feeling, hai :( I told you it was a NIGHTMARE, I wouldn't wanna go through it again. I guess only those who have went through will understand the nightmare i mean. You wouldn't know until u have experience it. Breathing without oxygen mask was alright as there's nasal drop to clear ur nasal, the nurse will frequently give u nasal drop. Without the urine tube, of course i will start to feel like i wanna pee, hence i request to the nurse that i want to pee, BUT, T.T they don't allow me to go toilet coz i was still in intensive care :(( PLS PLS PLS. No means no. :((( so what they give me is a portable toilet bowl 
The bowl was placed on my bed, and I have to pee on a bed :( I made a mess :(
The nurse said the toilet was far. So i insist i wait for my sis and dad to come with the slipper then i go toilet. Actually i was super urgent, but, peeing on my bed is a hell NO! (anyway, the morning shift nurse was great, I like her! She's also a jaw patient 1 yr ago!)My aunties, uncles and my lovely cousins visit me at night too! I'm super happy and my aunt even give me a hello kitty pushie to brighten my day! Oh ya, and I had Ensure milk instead of depending on glucose drip. Getting to taste something was great! I LOVE THE ENSURE (at that point, now NO)
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| Hello kitty pushie aunt gave me :D |
Day 2: GOING BACK HOME!! 29th dec 2012
Haven't been bathing since the day of operation :( I felt dirty, and I miss home badly, I dislike the constantly lying down on bed, and what i can see is only the window. Felt like walking out but where else can i go? Dad and sis came and fetch me home, and they bought me to have milk fish soup noodle (of course i take the soup only and they take both). The taste of real food was great! I'm bored of ensure alr. I can have the soup by using the straw. Amazingly!
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| Oh! small white board at home came into great use! |
There's no much pain suffered, all are bearable. The only difficult part is that I drool unknowingly, making a mess, wake up in the middle of night due to breathing difficulties and other issue which i can't remembered, for breathing difficulties, I just use the nasal drop to relieve my nose. And lastly, wake up with headache.
Day 3: Depressed 30th Dec 2012
Can't have any nice food, only Ensure milk and soup but I don't drink much Ensure milk, I think I only cleared 6tins till today (day 15) LOL. I still have 11tins with me now. AND what i hate most is the antibiotic! It taste bad, I had to take 1 hour or more to conquer it. I'm alright with the painkiller, bitter but acceptable taste. Family have been nice and supportive, I'm telling and convincing myself to be cheerful, but it just so hard, I even throw tantrum, for the first time :( this is how bad my condition is. Maybe it was also due to that some of my friends out there totally didn't msg me when they knew I went a major operation, maybe is i expect too much from them, they can't be msging me everyday? it's alright actually, just 1-2 friend out there caring me is enough. CHEERS!
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| Trying to cheer myself up, coz i know i'm the only person can control my emotion |
Still suffer from drooling unknowingly, waking up in the middle of night and waking up with headache
Day 4: Last day of 2012, 31th December 2012
2 cousins came down to my house and countdown with me at night :D I'm super happy. Simple happiness like this just make me feel blessed. They bought ahma soy, dessert (which i end up can't eat) and Champagne!
After 2012 ended, my face start to feel like exploding (is it becoz i take alcohol after i had my medicine?). I'm serious. So i went to sleep.
Woke up in the middle of night due to difficulties in breathing, felt like I'm gonna die. After I calm myself down, I remembered the nasal drop and everything was back to fine.
Day 5: Depression start 1st December 2013
Woke up with headache again. And I remembered I start to have depression, which i not sure or forget why.
The reason of my depression was most likely due to that I start to question myself why am I going through all these pain? My purpose of doing this surgery went weak.
Day 6: I finished ALL anitbiotic! 2nd December 2013
It's the day I surprisingly overcome my depression and I was super cheerful! And surprisingly, quite a few of my friends on this day contacted me which make me feel cared. Felt even more happy when i finished the last antibiotic. Plus, there's no more headache when i woke up this morning! Such a great day! So I made planning for my remaining holiday, I planned to make pineapple tarts, and if it's great, i'm gonna sell it! Even though i can't try it, but my family will be my taste bud.
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| My orange juice with syringe, I can't drink with straw, I don't know why |
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| Cheers for finishing all the antibiotic! |
Day 7: Went out 3rd December 2013
Went out with cousins to buy baking stuff, I was so blessed to have her accompanied. I planned to go by myself initially, but i think i did not have enough courage to do so. I'm scared, coz literally I'm a dumb (mute), I'm scared that i have to talk or someone asked me question. Step out of house and I coincidentally met dad, there was a big confusion coz i was unable to talk, and writing was so slow, he almost drive me and my cousins to eunos (my cousin's house). After much explanation, he finally got where i'm heading. Met my cousins and I have to write to her while she talk to me, a new weird experience. Being a dumb was really hard, I'm really feel fortune to be born well, though not pretty, but at least I'm healthy. Thank you god!
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| Made white fungus and jelly for my family, I can drink! |
Day 8-12: Pineapple Tart, rooftop prince, DIY scrapebook 4th - 8th Dec 2013
nth special to blog now, aside from being a dumb for these 2 week, the swell and the numb, I felt more like a normal human now. These are what i did during my rest.
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| My pineapple jam |
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| Enclosed pineapple tart |
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| I know CNY still have 1 month away, but I wanna try baking it before selling it |
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| my 5th can on ENSURE milk on day 9! Give myself a *pat* on my back for finishing the whole can!!! CHEERS! |
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| But look how many cans left :( no gonna drink it anymore >:( |
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| DIY scraped book for my upcoming uni reopen, I got 5 exam module, so i made 5 notebook and 1 2013 planner, this is for unit operation |
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| my 2013 planner, too many exercise book left from my bro |
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| The inside of my planner |
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| Heat and mass transfer |
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| My favorite Engineering maths |
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| Organic chem |
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| Chemical reaction Engineering |
Day13: GOOD BYE rubber bands! HELLO mashed food! WOHOO! I miss my voice! 9th Dec 2013
Visit my surgeon today :D she cut off those rubber band and put 2 elastic rubber at 2 end. She instructed me to only have fine porridge kind but I tried mashed my pineapple tart into smaller pieces and put into my mouth n swallow. HEAVEN! She also told me if my rubber happen to snap, a visit is needed again. Have another appointment with her next week. Anyway, I can talk NOW, finally, CHEERS! (even though i talk like a loser, becoz of the mould holding on my upper teeth -.-) After my appointment, i immediately went to have plain porridge and lao ban beancurd. Ummmmmmm, HAPPY GIRL IS ME! I'm so satisfied :)
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| GOOD BYE! hahahaha |
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| Made osmanthus jelly for my family at night, surprisingly, i can have it too, just cut it to smaller pieces Look into mirror, and I felt that I'm so ugly, I'm hopeless :( |
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| Made mashed potato for myself, super nice! Best food i ever had since day 0. Everything fattening inside. Basically, boil your potato, mash it, add milk, butter, cream cheese, chicken stock, pepper. Super easy and nice. |
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| I had lots of these chocolate too :X put it at room temperature so the chocolate is soft, and i spoon it into my mouth. Haha, feel so guilty now coz i haven't been eating all these for 14days. |
A HAPPY RECOVERING PATIENT!
Day 15: MY RUBBER SNAP! *FAINT* 11th Dec 2013
Time to time, at this period, I'm regretting the decision of operation, i forget my purpose of having surgery, and I think that I look better previously. And reading off the flowerpod forum for jaw operation, quite a few of them regret the decision they made too. I love reading that forum coz I'm able to find similar thoughts there. School starting on the coming mon, I'm so scared to meet those friends that I'm not close with (Hi-Bye friends). So i made a decision, DON'T go sch for 1 week! There's online lecture anyway :D
Oh ya, i think i brush my teeth too rough, one side of my rubber SNAP! HOLLY SHIT! It's friday night now, what shld i do? NDC don't open on weekend :( I'm so scared, afraid that my teeth might went slanted or my teeth might move in the bad way. BUT WHAT CAN I DO NOW? wait for monday to come -.-
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