After half a decade.........

HI GUYSSS!! I'm soooooooo excited to post this great news! I know you might already know what I wanna tell you
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I HAD MY BRACES OFF!!!! FINALLY :') after like half a decade. It's really half a decade, I am not exaggerating. Well, who cares now how long I have been through as long as I'm happy with my final result! YAY!

A music video that described my feelings when i took of my brace! Hope you guys feels the same when you took off your brace!

 

excited me in instavideo. Just 15s short!

 

Last photo of me wearing braces

BRACES GONE!

CELEBRATION TIME!

 

Anyway, just short update that my chin and lower lips still has little feelings. Probably 3 out of 10? I'm going for accupuncture every week, hope it helps. If it do, will update you guys!

 

6 more days to 5 month anniversary with my jaw

Hi to any one we happen to read this.

I lost count how many days away from surgery. Sorry for the layer of dust on my blog. Sigh. There's actually nothing much to blog about my jaw recovery. Numbness of my lower lip and chin is still 1 out of 10. 1 means I can't feel much, I can't feel hot pack placed on my chin. :'( Read from some other blog and forum, they said after the 6th month, that will be the permanent sense stay with you forever. 1 more month to go.

Well, apart from the numbness. I'm really happy with my surgery. Everyone praised I'm prettier now, prettier doesn't mean pretty, but better looking! I didn't regret after all, I like myself more! Jia You and good luck for those going for jaw surgery too! 

  

Day 89

Still have little feeling on my chin :'( maybe this is the price I have to pay

Day 66

Had an appointment with my surgeon today, and told her about my worries, which was that my lower lips and chin still numb. The awkward moment when she put her hand on my lips and ask how much I can feel at the rate of 1-10, and I was totally lost, coz I didn't know she alr put her hand on my lips. Lol. That's how bad it was till today. She prescribed me with 3months of neuroxel tablets, hope it works well! Pls pls! I don't wan my future bf kiss me without feeling it. Lol :D

Day 46: Simple Chinese New Year

Hi guys!
Just a short n random post. Sorry for inconsistent posting, kinda busy with sch work and I think I'm back like a normal person now which make nothing special to blog about. It's now all about eating. Being contented for able to eat those food u thought u couldn't! Time pass really fast. It was as if I went thru the surgery yesterday only. Some points to note
1. Getting compliment of looking better (still not quite sure whether they r just trying to console me). Yup, though I don't look pretty, n my nose are actually flat, but compliment is always nice to hear
2. Eating is a blessing.
3. From the day my surgeon say I can have rice, I have been obediently eating soft food like noodle
4. But today, cny eve, I had lots of food that I unexpectedly can bite on.
5. I ate abalone, fish ball, cheese tofu, pork and mutton shabu shabu, hot dogs for steamboat! Amazing!!!
6. Eating quite messily if I eat too fast
7. Eating too slow if I trying to eat neatly with not close friends.
8. Having too many food stuck at my lower teeth, I mean a chunk of food! I'm basically a human hamster now. I can store food in my mouth. whenever I'm hungry, just dig it out! Hahahaha. That's what my friend said! Lol
9. Saliva still drop unknowingly. I don't know is it only me or other jaw patient have the same problem. I guess I still don't use to my mouth, n didn't notice I didn't close my teeth or mouth shut?
10. My chin n lip still cant feel anything. Poking a needle lightly, i Won't know if I didn't see. Unless Lots of pressure is exerted. Worried that I can't recover

Sorry for the bullet point, I'm stupidly lazy

Goodbye! I will update again, just don't know when :D u can ask me qn if u hav doubts about having jaw surgery. I wonder who will read this anyway :D

Day 27: upper teeth plate off!

Yay! Upper plate off! Means I can talk better now, I can bite soft food now (though I already tried eating soft food like maggie and pasta b4 my doct told me so :p), and means I can touch my upper teeth n brush my upper teeth properly!! Have my first appointment with my dentist, I think I haven been seeing him for 2months alr, he put me with replaceable loose rubble band. Which I have to change everyday. That's all! Anyway, I had teriyaki salmon yesterday! Yum yum!

Day 25: 2nd day of school, 21 Dec 2013

2nd day of school, there's bad there's good things going on.

I'm happy with small things now,
1. I had fried white carrot cake
2. I had pasta and fries from Pizza hut
3. My friend say my complexion was good now(on sat another of my friend told me so too!), maybe i should stay on healthy diet forever (okay, that's impossible, I'm a greedy pig -.-)

Side note of being a little sad,
1. being stare and look constantly by 3 person (my hi-bye friends) I know, you all are talking about me -.- The feeling is really not good :'( but I'm alright now, I'm alright :|
2. Being said plastic again, I'm alright now, i'm fine, it's okay.
3. starting to scared that i won't be able to feel my chin anymore forever :| I still eat with a mess on my mouth and without knowing there's a mess

Day 22: My AWKARD first day of school, 18 Dec 2013

Hi, sorry for the inconsistent of blogging. I'm lazy and busy (excuse :D)
School reopen on the mon, but I skipped 4 days as there's no tutorial this week, only lecture, so i'm not traveling to school just for 1-2hour lecture. Okay, that's part of my reason for not going school. Another reason, like other jaw patient, I did not have the courage to meet my uni friends (those not close ones or HI-BYE friends) with my new bite/jaw plus I can't speak well now (due to the plate holding my upper teeth). I had alot HI-BYE friends in uni :( I'm really scared they judge me. I know, I know, we shouldn't care anyone that is not important to us. But, but........ I just don't have the courage.


I FINALLY PLUCK UP MY COURAGE. First day of school was totally AWKWARD. I'm feeling awkward, but I don't know those who talked to me does feel that or not. Some of my friends don't even realized my face, until i told them, haha. I met quite a few HI-BYE friends in my hall, and this make me wave to them saying Hi! , and I quickly put my head down or look other way. I acted unnaturally, come to think of it now, I SHOULD HAVE ACTED NATURALLY! They will they i'm a weirdo now :( Wave already then look down. LOL.

2 of my friends reacted and jokingly say plastic. I'm alright, at least they don't talk at the back and say I'm plastic. But just to make things clear here, THERE IS NO PLASTIC! Yea, is a surgery. Okay, whatever la, since I did already, there's no much to say, and I think the most important is what you think about yourself. So, I'm fine with all the comment :) Some say I look better :) Even though awkward, compliment is always nice to hear and it seriously give me some confident. Really thanks my friends for helping me to build up my confident. You might not know, your words does help :)

That's basically my school day today. Quite a fine one I guess :)

CHEERS FOR MY COURAGE!

POST operation: Summary of day 1 to 15

Hi guys!
It's actually 15th day away from operation day :D Just give a short and sweet long and windy summary of my condition during the 15day.

Day 0: Operation day, 27th Dec 2012
felt like i just went the operation yesterday, i can remember the 5 day of nightmare. I REALLY MEAN NIGHTMARE! I think I overlooked the whole process, it was actually much more painful/scary/unbearable then i thought it will be. But I guess I didn't regret doing it? But asking me to undergo it 2nd time, hmmm, I have to think again. It's REALLY REALLY A NIGHTMARE, not that i'm a scaredy cat. Entering the operation theater was scary,(don't know is it becoz of the air con and i'm only wearing a thin layer pyjamas) I remembered i shivered , just feel like a chilled down my spine. The scene was like I'm going to be operated and become a robot like those in the movie (okay, i'm a drama queen). I can feel the major-ness of the operation which make me start to think a lot, what if the operation failed? what if i die? (okay, drama queen again -.-) when pushed into the operation theater table, things get even more like in the movie, so many surgeon, nurse, doctor or whoever (total 7 and i don't know them) surround me while i was lying down there. The surgeon, nurse, doctor was nice, they assured me, making me less afraid of the operation. General anesthetic was given, i hate the feeling of it going through my hand and into my body, it's quite unbearable but the next moment, i was sound asleep. 

The drama moment i had :D

A collage of my love ones

Me excited on wearing the operation robe LOL 

Local anesthetic, medications and glucose drip was given through this tube to my body,  yes, it was scary, doctor said there's no needle inside, but i feel the pain when moving the hand too carelessly. 

When I was awake after the whole operation, a great sharp headache hit me, I rigorously n continuously shook my head, and the nurse was telling me to write what i'm feeling or what i wanna say (I can't remember) on the small white board as my teeth was totally rubber banded shut and with oxygen mask. But was I totally unconscious of what i had wrote. I only remembered i wan to write 'headache', after that i was pushed to Intensive Care ward and carried to my bed. I felt like a useless person when there's a need to carry me to bed -.-
What makes me felt more useless and felt like crying was using of a suction tube, holly shit, my mouth is full of blood, and every few hour I have to use the suction tube to suck off the blood, they taught me how to use it, but i can't feel where is my mouth, how would i know how to use :( I super upset with the nurse doing night shift, she's super impatient! I'm a patient and u so impatient towards a patient?! i tried to swallow the blood (as my dad told me to do so, don't say ewww, drink back the blood u have lost is good, lol) but it just won't go in. That's all for the day, oh, coz i slept the whole afternoon till like midnight, i can't fall asleep during the midnight, and the nurse was so bad that make me miss my family badly, I actually wrote to the nurse to ask her to call my parents to visit me. I thought it was 7plus in the morning, but to my surprise, it was only like 5plus?!

oh ya, when I was much conscious, i realised there's a urinal tube :O holly shit, that's the reason why I don't feel like peeing? Oh man, I'm a conservative girl (okay, a little embarrassing) but I just have to convince myself that they are all use to human body, and might saw like thousands of naked body? and I don't feel hungry, coz there's glucose drip.

Day 1: Nightmare 28th Dec 2012
A cotton inside one of my nostril was pulled out, I squeaked in pain and the urinal tubing was also pulled out, holly shit, the feeling, hai :( I told you it was a NIGHTMARE, I wouldn't wanna go through it again. I guess only those who have went through will understand the nightmare i mean. You wouldn't know until u have experience it. Breathing without oxygen mask was alright as there's nasal drop to clear ur nasal, the nurse will frequently give u nasal drop. Without the urine tube, of course i will start to feel like i wanna pee, hence i request to the nurse that i want to pee, BUT, T.T they don't allow me to go toilet coz i was still in intensive care :(( PLS PLS PLS. No means no. :((( so what they give me is a portable toilet bowl The bowl was placed on my bed, and I have to pee on a bed :( I made a mess :(

After a few hours, I feel like going to washroom again, after the experience i had just now, I stubbornly insisted i wanna pee in toilet, but what?! I don't have slipper with me!The nurse said the toilet was far. So i insist i wait for my sis and dad to come with the slipper then i go toilet. Actually i was super urgent, but, peeing on my bed is a hell NO! (anyway, the morning shift nurse was great, I like her! She's also a jaw patient 1 yr ago!)
My aunties, uncles and my lovely cousins visit me at night too! I'm super happy and my aunt even give me a hello kitty pushie to brighten my day! Oh ya, and I had Ensure milk instead of depending on glucose drip. Getting to taste something was great! I LOVE THE ENSURE (at that point, now NO)

Hello kitty pushie aunt gave me :D

Day 2: GOING BACK HOME!! 29th dec 2012

Haven't been bathing since the day of operation :( I felt dirty, and I miss home badly, I dislike the constantly lying down on bed, and what i can see is only the window. Felt like walking out but where else can i go? Dad and sis came and fetch me home, and they bought me to have milk fish soup noodle (of course i take the soup only and they take both). The taste of real food was great! I'm bored of ensure alr. I can have the soup by using the straw. Amazingly!

Oh! small white board at home came into great use!

There's no much pain suffered, all are bearable. The only difficult part is that I drool unknowingly, making a mess, wake up in the middle of night due to breathing difficulties and other issue which i can't remembered, for breathing difficulties, I just use the nasal drop to relieve my nose. And lastly, wake up with headache. 

Day 3: Depressed 30th Dec 2012 

Can't have any nice food, only Ensure milk and soup but I don't drink much Ensure milk, I think I only cleared 6tins till today (day 15) LOL. I still have 11tins with me now. AND what i hate most is the antibiotic! It taste bad, I had to take 1 hour or more to conquer it. I'm alright with the painkiller, bitter but acceptable taste. Family have been nice and supportive, I'm telling and convincing myself to be cheerful, but it just so hard, I even throw tantrum, for the first time :( this is how bad my condition is. Maybe it was also due to that some of my friends out there totally didn't msg me when they knew I went a major operation, maybe is i expect too much from them, they can't be msging me everyday? it's alright actually, just 1-2 friend out there caring me is enough. CHEERS!

Trying to cheer myself up, coz i know i'm the only person can control my emotion

Still suffer from drooling unknowingly, waking up in the middle of night and waking up with headache

Day 4: Last day of 2012, 31th December 2012

2 cousins came down to my house and countdown with me at night :D I'm super happy. Simple happiness like this just make me feel blessed. They bought ahma soy, dessert (which i end up can't eat) and Champagne!

After 2012 ended, my face start to feel like exploding (is it becoz i take alcohol after i had my medicine?). I'm serious. So i went to sleep.
Woke up in the middle of night due to difficulties in breathing, felt like I'm gonna die. After I calm myself down, I remembered the nasal drop and everything was back to fine.


Day 5: Depression start 1st December 2013
Woke up with headache again. And I remembered I start to have depression, which i not sure or forget why.
The reason of my depression was most likely due to that I start to question myself why am I going through all these pain? My purpose of doing this surgery went weak.

Day 6: I finished ALL anitbiotic! 2nd December 2013
It's the day I surprisingly overcome my depression and I was super cheerful! And surprisingly, quite a few of my friends on this day contacted me which make me feel cared. Felt even more happy when i finished the last antibiotic. Plus, there's no more headache when i woke up this morning! Such a great day! So I made planning for my remaining holiday, I planned to make pineapple tarts, and if it's great, i'm gonna sell it! Even though i can't try it, but my family will be my taste bud.

My orange juice with syringe, I can't drink with straw, I don't know why 

Cheers for finishing all the antibiotic!

Day 7: Went out 3rd December 2013
Went out with cousins to buy baking stuff, I was so blessed to have her accompanied. I planned to go by myself initially, but i think i did not have enough courage to do so. I'm scared, coz literally I'm a dumb (mute), I'm scared that i have to talk or someone asked me question. Step out of house and I coincidentally met dad, there was a big confusion coz i was unable to talk, and writing was so slow, he almost drive me and my cousins to eunos (my cousin's house). After much explanation, he finally got where i'm heading. Met my cousins and I have to write to her while she talk to me, a new weird experience. Being a dumb was really hard, I'm really feel fortune to be born well, though not pretty, but at least I'm healthy. Thank you god!

Made white fungus and jelly for my family, I can drink!

Day 8-12: Pineapple Tart, rooftop prince, DIY scrapebook 4th - 8th Dec 2013
nth special to blog now, aside from being a dumb for these 2 week, the swell and the numb, I felt more like a normal human now. These are what i did during my rest.

My pineapple jam

Enclosed pineapple tart

I know CNY still have 1 month away, but I wanna try baking it before selling it

my 5th can on ENSURE milk on day 9! Give myself a *pat* on my back for finishing the whole can!!! CHEERS!

But look how many cans left :( no gonna drink it anymore >:(

DIY scraped book for my upcoming uni reopen, I got 5 exam module, so i made 5 notebook and 1 2013 planner, this is for unit operation 

my 2013 planner, too many exercise book left from my bro

The inside of my planner

Heat and mass transfer

My favorite Engineering maths

Organic chem

Chemical reaction Engineering

Day13: GOOD BYE rubber bands! HELLO mashed food! WOHOO! I miss my voice! 9th Dec 2013
Visit my surgeon today :D she cut off those rubber band and put 2 elastic rubber at 2 end. She instructed me to only have fine porridge kind but I tried mashed my pineapple tart into smaller pieces and put into my mouth n swallow. HEAVEN! She also told me if my rubber happen to snap, a visit is needed again. Have another appointment with her next week. Anyway, I can talk NOW, finally, CHEERS! (even though i talk like a loser, becoz of the mould holding on my upper teeth -.-) After my appointment, i immediately went to have plain porridge and lao ban beancurd. Ummmmmmm, HAPPY GIRL IS ME! I'm so satisfied :)

GOOD BYE! hahahaha

Made osmanthus jelly for my family at night, surprisingly, i can have it too, just cut it to smaller pieces



Look into mirror, and I felt that I'm so ugly, I'm hopeless :(

Day 14: Homecooked mashed potato! SIMPLE + DELICIOUS = SIMPLICOUS, 10th Dec 2013

Made mashed potato for myself, super nice! Best food i ever had since day 0. Everything fattening inside.
Basically, boil your potato, mash it, add milk, butter, cream cheese, chicken stock, pepper. Super easy and nice.

I had lots of these chocolate too :X put it at room temperature so the chocolate is soft, and i spoon it into my mouth.
Haha, feel so guilty now coz i haven't been eating all these for 14days.

A HAPPY RECOVERING PATIENT!

Day 15: MY RUBBER SNAP! *FAINT* 11th Dec 2013

Time to time, at this period, I'm regretting the decision of operation, i forget my purpose of having surgery, and I think that I look better previously. And reading off the flowerpod forum for jaw operation, quite a few of them regret the decision they made too. I love reading that forum coz I'm able to find similar thoughts there. School starting on the coming mon, I'm so scared to meet those friends that I'm not close with (Hi-Bye friends). So i made a decision, DON'T go sch for 1 week! There's online lecture anyway :D

Oh ya, i think i brush my teeth too rough, one side of my rubber SNAP! HOLLY SHIT! It's friday night now, what shld i do? NDC don't open on weekend :( I'm so scared, afraid that my teeth might went slanted or my teeth might move in the bad way. BUT WHAT CAN I DO NOW? wait for monday to come -.-

19 Days before operation

Hi guys!

i'm so so so sorry that i didn't keep my promise to blog. >< I'm a super lazy blogger :( but i don't wanna delete my blog even though there is only 1 post (i took like 1 hr to type that okay?! haha) and I wonder does anyone read this?

Previous post, I promised to update on what i'm preparing for my operation, hehheh, I didn't prepare anything :X I'm embarrassed for being such a lazy bump! :X  I just wanna enjoy myself before operation and I was so pack with meeting up my friends, eating good foods and i end up no time to prepare anything for my operation. Actually come to think of it, you don't have to prepare anything for your operation, just prepare yourself! haha. Prepare you heart, prepare yourself clean and neat before operation.

For me, I prepare myself for operation by first, eating lots of good food, cos i know i wont be having anything solid for a few weeks :( and you will need to gain some weight as u will lose some later (I gained 3kg in the 19days holiday and lost 5kg during recovery period) During the period of gaining weight, u will like HOLY SHIT, I'm so fat now, but after operation, during recovery, the only thing that please me is that I lost 3kg in 5days. Second, having good times with friends and family before i go operation, cos i'm scared, i tend to think alot (maybe coz im a pieces), in my mind there's alot of 'what if'.  I wasn't scared of the operation, I wasn't at all until like a few days b4 operation. When friends and family asked me 'won't I afraid of the operation?', i easily say 'there's nth to be scared of la!' but as times goes near, I'm scared. I'm scared that the operation might fail, afterall it's an major operation right? That's mostly what i did since my day one of holiday, the last day of my exam!!

first good meal at Chili's with my roomie after our exam end! the lunch set meal wasn't good, but still it's alright since we haven't been eating anything nice during exam period.

me and my roomie!

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finally meet up with penny!

honeymoon dessert at somerset313 with penny!

after that we meet up with poly's friend and had steamboat buffet dinner at one china steamboat restaurant at vivo, the food was not value for money , i prefer home steamboat away lot more! But we just wanna avoid the crowd and queues, so buffet is still a good choice! 

And you know what?! we are so lucky to be able to enjoy our food and the view of  fireworks at Sentosa! 

we took lots of  photo before we leave, love them alot! (thanks to ger giving us all these poloroid photo!)

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this is actually our volunteer work day for OCIP at garden by the bay with the kids from BPPS (BPPS was my primary school!) I was a fun and tiring days with the kids. They are playful and naughty but I really enjoyed. 

After that we had pasta and fruit tart at fruit tart paradise, Plaza Singapura :D

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cooked coca cola chicken and baked salmon for family

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had tution for xie chang, think i quite fail in teaching kids, anyway, love playing with them :D


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Jes's Late 20th birthday dinner!

roses rainbow cake i made for jes!

My pork rib! I like their fries and coleslaw

happy me with my pork rib! 

Jes's beef, forget the name on the menu, I can't have beef but the mashed potato was nice!

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Penny and me!

Penny's 21st birthday! she came my house to have her birthday cake! :D  

Roses pink cake for penny! coz she like pink,  like i do, so a pink cake for her! 

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Food that i had before blood withdrawing, I need to store 2 pack of blood for operation use, in case lost of blood

1 pack of blood this week and another pack next week. 

Had grin affair cake after blood donation
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mum's made duck kueh tiao, i'm craving for it now :( I miss meat 

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Sister brought me to The Line buffet at Shangri-la Hotel to have good food before operation. 2 hour wasn't enough to try all the food (partly becoz i was busy with my registration of uni module) 

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Wild Honey with hall friends! This dish was named European, it was my first time having egg Benedict's, I love it! 

Christmas hot chocolate!

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my favourite korean Ja Jang mian! and seafood tofu soup at Pink Candy, beauty world :D

Overnight stay at my cousin's house 

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 Aunt treat me Lenas+MOF for having operation soon :') i really have thankful to have such a nice aunt :')

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 Steamboat dinner with family on Winter Solstice, SIMPLE + DELICIOUS = SIMPLIOUS

Home Steamboat is always the best right? SO MANY GOOD FOOD COMPARE TO OUTSIDE ONE

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CZ12 with cousins, a nice movie that worth my midnight

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Christmas celebration with poly friends

Swensen's sticky chocolate icecream log cake

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My little strawberry santa! 

My first log cake: Tiramisu with little santas!

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Malaysia neway karaoke trip with secondary sch girlfriend! MY LAST DAY ENJOYING BEFORE SCHOOL START :(

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Thats my 19 day of enjoying before operation. My regrets now is that I SHOULD HAVE CLEARED ALL THE NICE FOOD AT HOME SO I WONT SEE IT NOW YET CAN'T EAT IT.